Tag: peace

As I let go…

It controlled me
longer than I had thought
First, I couldn’t move, nor think
Invisible ropes pulled me back
into the void of past but happy memories
Reality would often come; burst the bubble & go
it kept repeating

Smiles, laughter jerked me in and out
I reached out to hold them
but all in vain
to cry? to scream or to give in?
I didn’t know

I then heard the lash
loud and clear
I open my eyes to the present
a bit relieved to see that, I am
Notice the sky above me
lit with stars gazing down upon me
talking to me
telling me their secret
telling me to stay put, let go
they are charismatic, have a strange influence
They speak the word of God
“It’s all part of the plan…why worry?” they say

I believe them
I close my eyes
Rewind it all one last time
and erase it

The feeling is light, rejuvenating and instant
like rebirth
wounded but healed
there was no desire
no suffering
no pain
no whim

It was nirvana
I was sure

That was easy
All I did,
was let go..

Place of solace

This open space with absolutely no ornamented buildings, no person walking by, no traffic hustle except the crickets singing their night song and the silent wind flowing by, brushing against my cheeks takes my breath away everytime I sit here at night, all by myself.

All I see in front of myself are bars of iron through which I view the pitch dark night with frequent illuminated patches by the street lights. Up above are the gleaming stars glaring down upon me as I turn my head up and foolishly start talking to them, treating them as entities of wisdom and reverence.

Open. Close. Open. Close.

I constantly do that with my eyes trying to absorb the beauty of the dark night. I take deep breaths to inhale the pleasant aroma rising from the earth mingling with the fresh land breeze. So far away this brings me from the rattles of daily life, the predicaments of workplace & knotted family issues..

The peace and tranquility I need to calm my senses are avilable to me no where but in my apartment balcony surrounded by the smell of the sea in its proximity…my everday solution to spewing out the negative toxins & achieving my temporary solace.